Lately I have been struggling with keeping anything going steady for longer than a couple of days. I am really trying to eat more healthy, keep up with regular exercise and getting enough sleep, and have tried numerous ways to keep me going. Like any behavior change, it is hard to make it a "habit" and it becomes frustrating, either to maintain the behavior change, or when I realize I have already blown the attempt to change at least twice during the first couple of hours of resolution. So, I am going to try and keep myself accountable, or at least track my success and failures on "paper".
I am eating 3 egg whites and 1 cup of oatmeal for breakfast. I don't always feel hungry at breakfast, but know that I need to eat carbohydrates and some protein to start the day. I would have had some berries, too, but we don't have any right now. Trip to Costco sometime this week..... I have had a cup of coffee, taken my vitamins and am ready to start the day.
Oh, there is a two hour delay for schools.....I wonder what I can snack on while I am working from home.....that is my first temptation, or at least I know it will be. I have my fridge stocked with healthy foods....will I choose something from there? I have the temptation to throw all of the junk food out of the house so I am not tempted, but know that isn't fair to the rest of the family, so I need to fight through the urges to grab cookies, or dig through my daughter's leftover Halloween candy or Valentine candy, or whatever I can find....maybe today is the day that I can win? I pray for help, and wonder if God will help me with such a small (and vain) request and know in my heart of hearts that He is willing to help me, but that I don't really want to fight, that I want to give in and eat whatever I want to....there's the rub.
God, please help me not give in. Give me the strength to fight the temptation, and not only fight it, but to actually win today. Please help me not compare myself to others, but be content with who I am, what I look like and remind me that You love me for me, not for what I look like. Give me the strength to live what I believe and what I tell others to do. Help me find You and Your help today.
Let me glorify You in what I do today.
Day one.
